Pengalaman.

First word; Buli.

Biasalah kan, mana ada asrama yang tak hadap benda ni. Sama ada kantoi atau tidak kantoi, it still happens. Pernah kena? Bolehlah. Tapi tak hardcore sangat pun la. Setakat basuhkan baju, cari duit syiling, belikan makanan kat kantin hm centu pernah la.

Mental Torture.

Biasanya, mostly akan kena dgn akak-akak (atau abang-abang) atasan. Sama ada kau bersalah ataupun tak, kau kena jugak focus dan tadah telinga kau, dengar segala bebelan yang mak kau pun tak  pernah bebel centu.

Aku? Pernah je kena dengan seniors. Dulu macam takut gak ah, nangis, fobia segala bagai sampai nak lalu senior pun rasa macam lalu kubur. Dulu la. Sampai satu tahap ni, aku rasa lali. Aku rasa dah biasa. Lantak diorang la nak bebel apa pun, sikit pun tak bermanfaat bagi aku. Not worth it kalau aku nangis kat situ.

Logic ke diorang nak marah aku sebab muka aku ni bajet?
Untuk diorang, adik-adik ni patut muka innocent, hingusan je, pakai selekeh-selekeh.

Mental Torture.

When I grew up, idgaf about this so called bully things. I just do my stuff. Aku tak kisah pasal orang lain. Hal aku hal aku, hal kau hal kau. Kita jaga diri masing-masing.

Turned out,
Aku difitnah.
Oleh pendidik aku, yang selama ni aku respect.

Lain tau, rasa dia kena fitnah dgn cikgu dan difitnah oleh kawan.
Lain.

Ended up, aku kena mental touche dgn orang yang aku respect.
Walhal bukan salah aku.
tapi tetap, aku kena tadah telinga.

Biarlah orang nak tuduh apa.
Bukan salah kau.

Camouflage

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When you're bad, and you live in a good surrounding, you'll automatically look nice. But, to expose yourself that you are bad, is way more better than hiding yourself. It is called 'camouflage' ; You pretend to be something, someone else.

People need time to change. As you had determined yourself to change, you wouldn't realise how time flies. You need more efforts to make some changes; fantasy to reality. Here, if you're not serious and focus, somehow it will change to something, you'll never expect.

Don't be scared if people are talking about you; judging you; laughing at you. At least, you have reveal yourself- the real you. Ignore them,  they're nothing. They aren't helping nor making worse.

You know what's the best for you.
And you believed in yourself.